All the best for the carling cup tonight

Ive come to realize that life is too short to hold grudges. Its too short to argue about stupid things with the ones you love, to over-analyze every detail of little things. Whenever i leave a loved one, whether we are mad at each other or not, i always tell them i love them, because I never know when i will see them last. Along the way, Ive learned that the biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself because once you are broken, you will never be fully fixed. We are all damaged in our own way, we can never be perfect.

"Everyone gets to the point of a breakdown, only some people hide it better"

Im starting to fall for you as hard as you did for me.

I like friday nights because i get to spent time with the most awesome people in the world. Friday night was night life with Aaron Anthea Zanicar Jay and William, Lucifer didnt join us because Andrea wasnt around. Its been quite some time since we last hunged out together and i was overwhelmed by the fact that they actually didnt forget to get my my very belated birthday presents! We played tell me one thing about yourself and i realized alot of their deep secrets. Jay and Zanicar got really drunk and William and Aaron had to help them home thus they left us at cq. Had heart to heart talk with my dearest and we cabbed home before 11.

I am going to have elective module course for the whole of this week and each session last for at least 6hours long, to make things worst this whole course involves lots of drawings and i hate to draw becuase i suck in art! I decided to give school a miss today since the course is gonna end real late today and i dont like that boring and uninteresting course. Still got three more days to go before this whole thing comes to an end, cant wait for friday like seriously though i know im never gonna get a cert for it. Going back to school during the holidays for extra physics lessons with the usuals conducted by the principal Mdm Ng. Hopefully i will be able to improve my physics!

Happy 27th darling dearest, Luv you!

Sirxlem Muchlikefalling

Just wanted to share.

We made love by the ocean where the waves crashed around you

Yesterday wasnt a good day at all. A small little fight made me so angry for the whole morning, so much for being excited that you were coming back. To make me not think about it anymore, i went down to the farm in the late afternoon to visit my dearest ricky. I had fun walking him outside the shelter, playing with him at the playground and making people jealous that i had such a beautiful dog. He was so active today and i sort of neglected him these few days due to my papers, shall visit you again next week when i pay the money for your stay alright :)

Besides the quarrel which made me so angry, Chelsea also lost on that day which made me even more angry and dissapointing. The diamond formation is not working at all, please just stop sticking to it cause it wont bring you any results if you continue. Pray hard that they will still be champions despite losing two matches already. On a lighter note, Drogba and Arshavin scored yesterday and my fantasy league points are high! Love you Andrey Arshavin!

Marina Barrage for belated birthday celebration tomorrow.

I am watching Green Day's concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium on 14 January 2010, See you!

I have the distinct suspicion you are playing me.

Today marks the last day of my end of year examinations, somehow i dont feel happy at all. Im so afraid i will screw up my mathematics paper, and the only paper im very confident in passing is chemistry. Why am i sucha failure. Hunged out alot during the exams period with the guys and Jaclyn, we stayed back like almost everyday to study or approach our various teachers for extra help and tips. We didnt exactly study most of the time, there were times when we started bitching about people and talked about beer/wine which is like so random. I also found out that some people there read my blog out of boredom right guys!

Since today was the last day of examinations, its worth some celebrations right. So i went down to Shafirul's house at 3pm in the afternoon to see his new cats and kittens, I couldnt stop screaming and shouting whenever the cat comes near me. Cheryl darling should know that i hate cats right! Back to the topic, After a few attempts of carrying the small adorable kittens i finally overcomed my fear and it is something which i think Shafirul will be so proud of. I brought the big cat called spikey up to my house after that since i stay just one floor above Shafirul and i returned it to him ten minutes later cause it was too active for me to handle alone. I shall overcome my fear of cats completely, soon. Just like how i overcomed my fear of dogs previously.

Why am i starting to fall sick, Ive got running nose and sore eyes now.

And i hope you are not reading my blog, sfb. Thank you!

So dissapointed in myself

I looked through my accounts notes just now and realised that i've made lots of errors in my paper, am gonna work extra hard for paper two now. On a lighter note, my examinations are ending soon and the long school holidays are approaching yayz! But i hate it when November approaches cause training resumes and there's no way i can make up stupid excuses to skip, my parents have warned me.

I've got a whole lot of plans for the long holidays, ranging from spending time with bestfriends in school to spending time with friends outside school. Thinking of it now makes me feel so happy and excited, seriously cant wait. More gay and laughter coming your way. But first and foremost, i should really pray hard that i will do well for my end of year examinations, im so afraid that i'll screw up all my papers. I must do well for all subjects, its probably the last thing that my parents ever wished for. So much for blogging on a cold saturday morning, shall go and have my breakfast nowz :'(

The best thing that i have ever done this year

Why does it seems like everything that i have studied doesnt come out in exams. I studied about what led to Stalin's rise for history but Hitler's one came out instead, screw myself big time manz. Chinese is practically beyond hope, i didnt understand the passage at all thus i anyhow picked out answers from the passage to fill in the empty blanks. Accounts paper one today wasnt any better, so much for studying about source documents when so much of chapter one things came out instead. Nine papers done, five more to go. All the best!

Did i mention i had an enjoyable time for the past few weeks with very awesome people like Grace, Liying, Yuping and Joyce! We (excluding grace) talked for nearly an hour at macs a few days back and they made me laugh so much, they are like the best! Headed down to Yp's house after school, we played with Snowy and Snowball, I like Snowy better cause he's not fierce. Left at around 11 and took bus 3 with Daniel Leck, he damn funny plz. Shafirul came to meet me after that, he got so angry because of somethingz. Cheer up bestfriendz :)

Why is it that you can do certain things but i cant, its normal to have a talk with a friend right. Why are you always being so paranoid and think about things that doesnt concern you. You are so prejudice, you belief without information. I am not angry with you or what so ever, i just feel that you treat people unfairly. Why do you always assume. You do things without thinking of the consequence and i am always the one getting affected not anyone else. I dont like it when you treat me this way. And dont assume that its you when im not refering to you!

I am intoxicated by the feelings I fantasize

Last day of school before examination starts. Had one hour of maths and two hours of mother tongue today, followed by bitching session with some elective history students and my form teacher during homeroom. Headed down to white sands after school with Shirvey to meet Giedon, he owes me a birthday treat after examinations. After that i went down to t1 to meet Shafirul and we had lunch at Secret Recipe, he brought me two helium balloons with the number one and five on it respectively. Went home with him after all that. I am going out later to celebrate my birthday again. At the mean time, see you back here on the 15th :)

Thanks for your birthday wishes, gifts, cards and balloons:

Anthea, Andrea, Kelyn, Charlene, Zanicar, Lucifer, Aaron, Carson, Carina, Joanna, Joanne, Belle, Elysia, Jezrika, Cristabella, Rachel, Syahirah, Shafirul, Grace, Liying, Yuping, Joyce, Kailing, Shirvey, Amanda, Wilson, Gideon, Wensen, Kelmond, Edward, Kelvin, Ahmad, Ernest, Amos, Clement, Emil, Shanqian, Muzhafar, Caizhen, Jaclyn, Cheryl.B, Cheryl.L, Denise, Hannah, Atiqah, Daryl, Affandi, Nathaniel, Angie, Liwei, Yvonne, Nicole, Jiahui, Clarissa, Helio, Rene, Jeremy, Caleb, Zirong, Jiayi, Lucas, Peixian, Yuying, Zetty, Carrie, Faizal, Desmond, Esther, Genevieve, A.Crystal, A.Jaan, U.Neil, Darren, Estella, Sera, Zanny, Calista, Khairule, Zainul, Ivan, Bertram, Victor, Shenyang, Gavin, Reynerd, Cameron, Jedie, Fahmi, Ryan, Joel, Alvin, D42N, Unknown. ♥

I no longer know if im lying to myself about you

I am turning fifthteen when the clock strucks 12 tonight.

Yes its 2nd October tomorrow, I really hope you remember.

10788.) You dont know how much strength it takes not to break down from knowing that I was never enough. Though it's been ages, I finally see all the bull shit you gave me.