Gay bitch, 32nd ♥

I just checked my nuffnang and found out that someone found my new bloglink. Congrats then, but my main motive of changing the bloglink is not because i wanted to avoid you. I am just sick and tired of my old bloglink + you becoming my daily reader. You will never understand how irritating it is to see your name appearing in my nuffnang every single time. Screwed.

Did not attend training for three weeks and my parents got called up at least twice a week, and i must return back next week or else they will drop my vc post. Good to hear that the training schedule this time round is once a week instead of thrice, 28 new juniors. Need to teach them every single thing right from the scratch, wish me luck in handling them.

Life sucks: Tution + Coursework + Countless homeworks = Torture.

I drink to stay warm and kill to selected memories

We were supposed to have a good talk today but nothing turned out right, if it wasnt for the girls and guys there i swear i would have slap the hell out of you. I was stupid to have thought that you would come and help me, I was wrong. Who are you to come and control my life, you arent my boyfriend or anything so why should i wait and pick up your call at 3am. You can go and drink till you are drunk for all you want, it doesnt concern me anymore.

Its funny how quickly you get to feeling better when you're twenty two. Sure, it was still a breakup, but it was back when a breakup was mark by sleeping in and dealing with it by listening to songs on college radio that comfort the listener with big fat warm guitars and words about hearts, and by still feeling like a misfit. Im not trying to say it was easy, Im sure i was heartbroken, but from eighteen years down the road and looking back, it seems like it was that young version of heartbreak that comes with the excitement of wondering what might be next- you stay awake nights smoking cigarettes that cant kill you yet, wondering who will be the next person to actually let you see them naked. You’re made confident by nothing more than knowing that with so many years still in front of you, it is simply bound to happen again.

You know that feeling where you need somebody so badly that it just aches and the only way to cure it is by being in the presence of that same somebody except being in their presence makes you ache too, and in the end it just feels like sometimes you just cant win?

Tonight, I feel just like that. I cant win.

You dissapoint me time and again

Its the last week of school and things havent been working out as planned for me. Yesterday was really terrible, trust me. Had a really bad tummyache for the whole of yesterday, moodswings too. Thanks a million to my lovers Jac and Denise, Grace and Nathaniel for their concern in school and the rest on msn. They are like the best. Are your friends as awesome as mine? Bet they arent.

School as usual tomorrow, thursday's sports day and friday's CIP day at East Coast Park. The following week is march holidays, catching up with my girls + training + more studying! My dad's company is really generous, they gave my dad discount for Singapore flyer tickets and tickets to UK/England! So Singapore flyer next week and England next yearz, cant wait manz! I hope to see Jack Wilshere and Aaron Lennon there.

Your friends are always more important, I get it now. You were never there for me when i needed you, So why should i do the same. You can hang out till 3am for all i care. Dont come calling me to accompany you at your place the next day, call your friends. They are much more worthy than me.

I know that i just need you like ive never done before

First and foremost, I would like to send my deepest regards to Aaron Ramsey who suffered a horrendous injury last Sunday. My thoughts are with you bb, may you have a speedy recovery. Logan Lerman is the hottest guy on Earth because i think he's got the Zac Efron + Jack Wilshere features on him and i think im willing to give up Kyle Patrick, Martin Johnson and even Jack Wilshere just for him. To add on, I think his smile made my heart meltz.

Life have been mundane, daily routine of school and netball booth is killing me. I have been having uncountable amount of test and homeworks daily and its like i cant find the time to revise or complete all my homeworks in a day. Hence that results into copying my friend's work, screw sec four life so much. Seriously regretted not studying hard enough during sec three, there's so much things for me to catch up right now and time is limited. I feel like travelling overseas for a short break or maybe migrate to somewhere to study, everything here is too stressful.

"Its a terrible thing to know what you want but cant have it at all"