My beloved baby boy passed away at 12.17pm today. No words can ever expressed how upset I was and I cried too much. But nevertheless I am proud of him because I think he himself knew that he was going to hamster heaven today but he held on for so long because I think he also knew that I was upset and couldn't bear for him to leave. He held on from 10am - 12.17pm. At a point of time, his front paws and neck started getting wet cause I think he vomited water, he drank a lot of water the night before. Seeing him suffer so much, made my heart ache. That was when I told myself that I can't be so selfish to let him suffer in pain just because I didn't want him to leave. At about 12.12pm, I sat next to his cage and said 'dearest, I know you have been a strong boy and you don't want me to see you leave. But I can see that you really are in pain, just leave me if you really need to. Just leave, I love you.'
I think he somehow understood what I was saying and 5 mins later he passed away. He was a bit restless on thursday already and I even told denise just yesterday that he was gonna die. But yesterday, he looked really energetic and ate so much! But like the dramas, our pets always look healthy before they die just because they do not want their owners to worry about them. It really hurts to know how much he had gave me in life and that things will never be the same ever again. The one year plus with this baby boy was the best. I thank every single one of you more you nice encouragements I promise I will get back even stronger because I'm sure he doesn't want to see me so upset either. He was the best hamster and the best gift from God to me. I love you baby, I really do. Rest in peace.
