2 down, 3 more to go!

glutton is me. skipped lunch yesterday then ate so much for dinner. chilli chips + rice with japanese kebab sticks + milk tea with pearls. I am halfway there by the way!!!! I am done with 2 papers and only have 3 more to go before I officially end my sem one. Science UT was surprisingly easy today as said by many on twitter, I felt that the earlier parts were fine but the last few ones were such a killer //inserts shocked emoji// But overall science was alright, what's better is seeing him in the morning where cherry even said that we were wearing couple tee. aww this girl, couldn't stop making me blush early in the morning. But yes, it really made my morning + not to mention sitting beside cute malay boy during the science ut :)

1. My birthday is in a month + 2 days time!
2. I am turning 18 :)
3. Considering having a small party @ home where a few relatives, close secondary school friends and close poly school mates around.
4. Happy's birthday is in exactly 2 months time, 29th October!
5. At the meantime, I still have NO ONE to celebrate my birthday with.. (krik krik)
6. I will post a wish list on what I would like for my birthday soon so that my aunt can see hehe and get me something :)
7. goodbye and bless the rest of your uts xx

60 months, 5 years have passed. But this, at least was what could be. We met 5 years ago where I was always @ Haig girls' on a weekly basis having netball. You on the other hand, was just someone, just a passer-by that never fails to appear at the bus stop waiting for your dad to pick you and your mom up because you always headed to your auntie's place after school. There was once when it was raining so heavily, just like today and me and the girls were running across the road to the bus stop for shelter. You saw us being drenched and took out tissues for us, the 3 of us Anthea, Andrea and me. Then slowly Andrea liked you. You and her became close and me? I fancied you but I never really loved you yet. We hung out together, always. It was like a weekly saturday night routine for us to meet up. But then one day, we play truth or dare and you said dare. They dared you to choose one girl to say 'I love you + make the kissy sound' You didn't choose me of course, you chose Andrea but I was jealous. I don't know why but jealousy was all over me. I think you knew. You texted me that very night, just asking if did I reached home safely and etc. I liked it. Slowly, texting you was like a 24/7 thing. We got together on the 26th 27th because I only said yes at 12.02am HAHA cheesy much. But true.

This whole relationship was an on and off thing with multiple quarrels in between. Officially broke off in May 2010. I met someone new in August and you, continued with your old ways I guess. You started texting girls and was constantly uploading photos of you and another girl online just to irk me. Subsequently, I ended up relationship no.2 from Aug-Sept. It just wasn't worth it getting too attached to someone whom I never really understood and was so difficult to communicate with. One thing I'm happy up till now would be the friendship that we have maintained ever since. Thank you for still treating me as your bestfriend and trusting me so much. Up till today, I wished we were still together. It's because of you that's why my expectation for men is so high (HAHA like not even kidding). Bring me back to 2007 now please, I miss those times where you would move between hotels and your house and I would still visit you anyway, I miss hanging out in your room just lying on the bed and having a good h2h talk, I miss you sleeping like a pig everytime I'm over at your place and you will wake up and apologize countless of times and lastly I miss those long warm hugs on rainy days like today, I just miss you and everything about you. Best friends always, Aaron Allius.

Parade - Light me up

Nobody said this was going to be easy. Nobody said leaving your classmates of 5 months would be easy. It feels like o level graduation all over again but the feeling for this was worst, knowing that you have to change classes when you just started to be close to the classmates is terrible. Thank you to this lovely bunch of classmates for everything, especially the never-ending laughters that we had in class. Without you guys, Y1S1 would never be any fun. I will miss all of you really, from the bottom of my heart. Knowing that we will all come back for Y1S2 in a completely different environment sucks. I'd thank every single one of you for all that you have done to me but I can't possibly name all of you out. Today, being the last day of school was very emotional for many of us. Thank you Cherry and Pei qi for the polaroid pictures that were taken.When school ended, we all separated ways. I went home with Pei qi while Vivian and Jane headed to the library and Cherry went to meet her friend. Omg the moment Vivian came forward to hug all of us, tears started steaming down her face. Me being me, getting so emotional easily was like "no shit, vivian don't cry you will make me cry too" in my heart.

I really hope I would still be in the same class as vivian next sem again, we have a high hope of being together again because we're from the same course. She is probably one of my first friend in school and she's just so bubbly and cheerful and SO nice. I am so thankful to have her as my friend, always there for me 24/7 really. Whenever I just post a tweet saying I'm upset and what not she will immediately whatsapp and text me to ask me what happened. Love you, don't cry when you're reading this ok <3 p="p">

Hehe with Cherry! Sigh she's so nice and I am going to miss her so much. Thank you for always teaching me all the things that I don't know and don't understand in class, being my listening ear (sometimes) and just being my friend. It was because of you that's when I realized I'm so short in poly. HAHA. Thank you for always telling me stuff about A, I am going to miss all these so much!!!

Where should I even begin? Thank you PQ (as jacob says) for making my 168 journey back home so enjoyable with your never ending stories and lame jokes sometimes haha. I will never ever forget your blonde jokes, playing 'how many meh meh jump over the wall' and 'johnny johnny woosh'. Thankful to have you as a friend because you're my first close east-side friend in poly! I know I can always confide in you whenever I have gossip news or want to tell you who's handsome and whatnot. But most of all, I love you for loving the rose as much as you love him HAHA. I will definitely miss finding him at lawn/south/everywhere in school with you. I will miss us planning on what to eat the next day/week but yet never being able to fulfil what we said. We still have the next sem for us to eat all these together, froyo, subway and lawn's chicken cutlet rice. PLEASE MEET ME NEXT SEM. Enough said, you know I will miss you so much :(

I FEEL SO SAD EMOTIONALLY WHILE TYPING ALL THESE. WHY MUST RP DO THIS TO US, SEPARATING US WHEN WE ARE SO BONDED OMG I WILL MISS MY GIRLS (JANE, VIVIAN AND PEI QI) SO MUCH. //crying time// x

a week more

27th August 2012. This day means a lot to me, used to and still is though he probably thinks it's of no significance. I spent today studying the last bit of marketing, it was so dry and I feel bad because I know I did not put in my 100% effort when studying. I am in no mood for anything now because this weekend have been horrendous. I got judged yesterday for being a loser. My aunt fell down and injured her back and she is hospitalized. I visited her today with my family and it really hurts to see her in this state. I really do not believe that she deserves this. Back to yesterday, my aunt and her friend and I don't know, I think everyone was judging me because I was carrying happy the whole evening. No, you guys don't  understand why I was carrying her. Stop saying that I'm pampering her. The house was so dirty, filled with food all over and being happy she would definitely go and eat everything on the floor therefore I carried her. Secondly, my cousins were so god damn scared of her and yeah I also wish I could let her roam around but can I? It's a freaking no! Judge me for all I care, o'yeah I did nothing I wasn't helpful the whole time? Says who? I freaking helped. Ugh honestly.

50m away from you

Hi everybody, blogging from school because I just had to share with you all my happiness. I saw my eye-candy just now, no words can describe how happy I was just now. I swear I tried my best not to look at him but I just couldn't help. He's too perfect for a human, trust me. I think we made eye contact too omg fan-girling like mad over someone who's attached is just awkward. No I am not going to be the third party.

I really did!!!!!!!! I feel so happy for myself but my classmates were really nice too for letting me sit on the seat that was facing him too. You're the reason why I come to school everyday hahaha not crazy. ENOUGH FAN GIRLING HAHAHA PLS SHARE MY HAPPINESS WITH ME :) x

Year one, semester one @ Comms P15

Year one, semester one @ Science P15

I can't believe just like that and we're done we sem one. These classmates of mine have been so nice to work with really and I feel that I couldn't have had a better class than this. I feel that what's so good about us is that we are all so bonded, we can communicate with one another and there is always laughter in class with this group of people. The thought of starting anew in sem 2 sucks, a part of me wants to stay with this group of classmates forever but another part of me feels that it would be good for a change. Either way we hope for the best. only the best.

Everything that's said in this picture, legit truth. Today's the 10th August and I feel like being emotional all over again just because I read one of my bff's blog and... I don't know what to say I just feel that she's so strong. So strong for a guy who knows that she exist but yet plays with her. I've always had this tiny hope that maybe one day, just one fine day we might have that little hope. But no it's okay, I think I'm thinking too much this will never happen no matter how much effort I put in, trying every god damn way to catch your attention. I can spend minutes, hours, days and even months trying but at the end of the day if it's not meant to be it will not be. Live with it Petrina, you know there's better things in life worth chasing for. Btw the 1st of August actually marks what happened 3 years ago, time flies. I don't think I have seen anyone who loves me so much before, but that was the past.

Did I mention how excited I am for my birthday? Less than 2 months to go and I'm thinking of having a mini party @ home with a few friends and relatives. The best part about birthdays are presents, I love opening presents! October is such a beautiful month because happy turns 1 on 29th October too. Okay I think I need to do up a birthday wishlist so that uh maybe you guys might want to see what I want for my 18th? HAHAHAHA okay not. O'ya before I forget, my baby ricky is on homestay with my aunt!!! So far so good, hopefully this baby gets used to the house and gets to have a forever home permanently //prays// //cross fingers//

sigh, he's so big, fat and suave.

OVERDUE PHOTOS!

love these girls so much :*

year one poly classmates

Monday's ootd

tuesday 1

tuesday 2

Have a good weekend everyone, stay safe and remember community shield on sunday night xo

Good and bad

3 UT grades released, 3 'passed'. I am quite thankful for my grades this time well though I was so disappointed with my cognitive one, got a passed grade but failed the test. Moderation is being good and nice. So far so good, now I am worrying for formal wear for next week's comms lesson. The skirt I bought from h&m looks like it does not suit me I think I need to get another one this week from cwp. I owe everyone too many photos from my phone especially my girls lol. 

K sidetrack awhile, I am bringing Ricky home for the week! Well not exactly my place but my aunt but nevertheless, I am SO excited. I love him so much, it sometimes hurt. I'm just hoping and praying that everything turns out well so that we might consider him coming home permanently. I mean him having a forever home would be the best option for all of us, so I don't always have to travel between school - home - shelter for the time :) happiness.

SOS

Am I the only one who hopes and think this way? Short getaway needed.

I just blogged a whole lot of nonsense before deciding to delete everything. what's the use of typing everything here really besides I don't think I really want to let everyone know why I am raging because some people might just say I'm such a loser or "small thing also angry" and what not. goodbye x