Inspirational

Everybody. Every single one of you take 8 mins of your life today and watch this video. You will not regret.

Don't quit even when the going gets tough, it's gonna be all worth it.

20 unique viewers yesterday, why am I impressed? Apparently 1/2 of these readers made their way to my blog through another blog who linked me but I have no idea who that person is!!! (you get it, you get it not?) Anyway all my secondary school friends are out for dinner and movie whereas lonely me is here at home struggling to take care of my naughty soon-to-be one year old poodle!

So my friends have been urging me to write out a list of things I would like to have for my 18th birthday which is in a week's time (02 october). So here it goes, in no particular order:

1. Skirts

Like I have been looking to find these skirts in the longest time. With or without designs and any colors, like you know those where you can randomly match with a plain black or white top. Yup.

2. Crocs flats

I shall not further explain this since my mom would be getting me a pair :)

3. Bag

THIS IS A MAJOR NEED OMG. I want those charles and keith inspired black leather bag with gold buckles and zips wtf so preddy!

No it doesn't have to be Givenchy or Charles and Keith but just something like that. I am really into these kind of bags now (someone date me out to h&m pronto)

Lol I don't think I have any other things that I really really would like. These are the few hehe. My aunt said I am too picky when it comes to choosing my birthday gift so she bought me contact lenses last year which I find it a good gift since I do wear them often. And I just got to know my brother would be getting me a watch. My parents will be getting me the crocs flats and bringing me out for a belated and good Japanese dinner at Sushi Tei! My girlfriends will be having a picnic with me at sentosa on the actual day too. Why am I so fortunate wtf.

O'ya since we're into the topic birthday my dog has her very own wishlist for her birthday too hehe just helping her to name some out!!!

1. TOYS

even though she is 1 but she still needs toy and can never have enough toys. she loves toys!!!

Yeap I think that's all for her. My mom doesn't want anyone to get her snacks, treats or food related stuff because afterall we know what she eats and doesn't so we don't want you to waste your money. And there are only some things we DO NOT want to let her consume. Like lamb, duck etc the list goes on so please don't buy food for her thank you :)

Catchup

Hi! I am currently at MBS for one of aaron's friend birthday celebration. I know I shouldn't even be here because I don't even know who the birthday boy is. But anyway happy 20th Jerron. The party is so cute, his parents, relatives and friends are all here and everyone is supposed to apparently wear blue to the party lol. Nice but awkward. Anyway we just had oreo chocolate birthday cake which was super yums. I love anything chocolate and oreo (except oreo cheesecake, I hate cheesecake). I cannot believe it though the amount of cute boys here *_* I never want to wake up from reality again, let me continue dreaming how perfect they are. All I want to do now is to go up to them and say 'hey, can I touch your 6 pacs?' fml. BACK TO REALITY. Now we're all cooped up in the room watching leap year when in actual fact I really want to get home now :( party spoiler mode - on.

Let's face the fact. Ever since school ended 3 weeks ago or so I haven't been going out for shopping, cheap thrills, simple dine-in with my friends and all. Nothing of that sort. I guess everyone has their own stuff to do and own schedule, nobody really makes time for you unless you initiate. Post birthday plans ruined because some people just didn't want to be a part of it and they were the most important group of people (other than my gfs and family). Reality is setting in and I am running out of time. I am 8 days away from turning 18, it's about time to grow up really. You can't depend on anyone because they will keep disappointing you again and again and again and again.

nope not everyone disappoints, a dog doesn't!

okay sometimes I think about my life and am quite thankful because my mom got me a dog and she's totally like my companion + bestfriend + listener + entertainer. She's so cute sometimes most times even though she bites which is a habit of hers that I hate a lot and am still trying to correct her. Babe here is turning 1 in a month's time too! Her birthday is 29th October just so you know and if i'm not wrong. I think I have got myself the most adorable baby in the world :)

sorry but this picture of happy is SO cute see her angelic eyes + her paws. cuteness level: maximum

goodbye and goodnight, we wish you a good day ahead xx

(look forward to the next post tomorrow, stay tune!)

Daily rant

These few days have been so frustrating. I hate you netball so much, I just want to quit now. Every single day I am expected to attend stupid trainings where coach isn't even present and all we do is run and do court games. Stupidity at its best. I don't waste my time going there for nothing and if I don't attend ridiculous K will start calling and texting me and what not. God knows how much I hate everything now.

I am doing nothing with this holidays. All my friends are going for shipping, picnics, cute lunch dates, more shipping and every little thing friends will do but me? No nothing. I have been at home 95% of the holidays. No one ask me out, no one have cute girlfriend dates with me. 5% of the time is spent on breakfast/lunch/dinner with a few friends. That's all. I guess it's true, so much have changed over time and slowly no one ever stays there for you. They just leave and just don't contact you anymore. This is sad. I'm always the left-out, ugly, fat, anti-social and even more ugly friend among all the other friends. I sometimes also feel that I'm the most stupid, ugly and ridiculous looking girl among all my beautiful cousins and all. I need some self-esteem booster now, all these things are so hurtful to hear. Especially knowing that I am ALWAYS the one being compared to someone way prettier. Idfk but please just stop comparing for once, during family dinners and all. One day, I just hope that I can be better than everyone else.

Demi Lovato

X-factor started last night here in Singapore (!!!!!!) I am a major, huge fan of the x-factor. I can stay glued to the television just watching the x-factor the whole day. This year we have Britney Spears and Demi Lovato instead as judges which I felt was a fair and nice change, good to bring in new talents as judges to see how they judge and all.

Demi is flawless.

So yesterday I was watching the first part of the auditions only and it started out so emotionally already. Then as it went by, I started to see talents in some of the contestant. One of them that really caught my attention was Jennel Garcia. This girl was amazing and I actually thought that she looked so much like Demi, like in every single way. Yes, I really loved her performance, you can go on and google it or maybe youtube it. Okay then as contestants went passed on and on, the last one was about this girl who went through bulling by students from her high school and she went on to tattoo 'stay strong' on her back which was similar to demi's one that she got on her wrist. She went of to tell her bullying story and when she started singing, the judges said there was so much feeling and emotions in her song. But at this moment, I magically fell in love with Demi all over again omg. I just felt that she has such a big heart and is truly inspiring. 

I was never really a fan of Demi Lovato. I liked her on the movie Camp Rock but still not a true lovatic (as they say). Not until yesterday, after x-factor I googled, researched and watch videos of her like crazy. I love the tattoo on her wrist, I watched the video of her on MTV; Stay Strong. I was so appalled with all that she went through and through it all she stayed strong. She is so inspiring and amazing. She talked about weight issues like how people used to bully her about her weight and all. I feel that although she is not that slim but she's still gorgeous. I mean every single one of us is pretty in our own way regardless of weight, height and race. So why bully? Shit watching all those Demi videos make me emotional mentally and physically, in a good way. She inspires me, she's so beautiful.

this is demi's tattoos on her wrist. I love it and hope to do one soon

I had 40 odd readers in the blog yesterday, strange. I slept off all my troubles and pains yesterday at 10pm. I have decided to accept my fate. I think this is God's way of testing me, with no friends, a family that scolds constantly over little things, a life that is as close as meaningless. Sorry for the vulgarities yesterday, I didn't mean it I just had to get it off my chest.

I feel terrible, very. It just hit me this morning that I have no real friends. I don't have someone who I can call as my bestfriend forever (bff), I don't have someone who can be there for me when I'm feeling sad, I don't have anyone to be there to share my happiness with, I don't have anyone to go out with and ask for opinions when shopping, I don't have a best friend.

I envy a few girls around me who have this best friend with them to just hang out together, shopping, dining and just share secrets with random h2h talks. I feel like a loser. All my life, I only had one true best friend in primary school. But happiness was short lived, she migrated to Australia when we were in Primary 6 and since then we never contacted. After that, I thought I will definitely find my best friend in secondary school, but I never did. The feeling is horrible, just as I'm typing this I'm crying my eyes out. I feel so sad for myself because I don't have a fucking friend. I'm crying even more because my dad just told me off because I wanted happy to have her dinner at 7pm (that's the time she always has) and he just had to spoil it and tell me straight into my face by saying "if you're hungry and I give you dinner at 8 can?" then he made dinner for happy and gave it to her at 6pm. He don't understand the pain I'm going through everyday to make it a habit for happy to have her dinner at 7pm.

Back to the friends issue. I am so affected, each time I check instagram or facebook I see people posting photos of them just hanging out with their friends or whatnot. I don't have the rights to hate anyone but I just hate all of you with best friends really. What did I freaking do to deserve such fate. I can only say I have 'hi-bye' friends whom I can count on for a while and not anymore. I can't even count on my netball friends anymore sad to say because no one really stays, we're friends for a while and then when there's no trainings we are not friends anymore. I am always the one preparing stuff, being nice for my 'friends' but no one really returns back all these kindness.

I am such a sucker. I hate myself. If no one cares for me, I will care for my fucking self.

abroad

I need to travel again soon, feel like ages since I've last stepped out of Singapore. My last trip was to KL Malaysia which I feel is never counted because I actually secretly hate going to Malaysia. I feel everything there is exactly the same as Singapore, only that the food there is halal so I'd rather stay in Singapore. But no, now that my dad is working at KL Malaysia on a semi-temporary basis this will also means travelling there more often for short trips. Ugh such a waste of time. I've been hinting to my mom on a few places I would love to visit with the family before I get married off wtf. Here I go:

1. AMAZING JAPAN
I have always to visit Japan because of the food obviously (big fan of Japanese cuisine) as well as seeing for myself how friendly and well-mannered the Japanese people are! I want to eat all the ebi prawns and chicken teriyakis for as long as I'm in Japan and the never ending ramen.

Ramen is a Japanese dish of noodles in broth which originated in China, where all noodles seem to have come from, and are called “Lo-Mein” in Chinese, which means boiled noodles.
“Ra-men” is the Japanese pronunciation of the Chinese Characters for Lo-Mein.
It is said to have been brought in Japan around 100 years ago. Over the last few decades, however, ramen has become a typical Japanese dish and gained great popularity inside and outside of Japan. Ramen noodles are about as thin as spaghetti and are served in a soup with various toppings. There are many different ramen dishes differing in the soup base and the toppings. 

wtf pictures look so good (via tumblr)

A classic serving of chicken teriyaki with rice.

2. London

As most of you know I am a massive Chelsea fan so I must visit London one day, I don't care. I want to see the London's Eye, Stamford Bridge, Emirates, White Hart Lane and whatnot. Of course, I would love to go to London for Chinese food! Heard so much about it, pretty sure it's gonna be quite good :)

London's eye x Big Ben

 

//inserts touched meme//

3. Taiwan

Taiwan, where do I even begin? All the yummy food ranging from mee sua (chinese noodles thing) to the ever so famous crispy fried chicken + bubble tea. I don't think I will ever get enough of Taiwan's food. So yumz, imagine the Taiwan food in Singapore is already that good! I don't think I can even resist those in Taiwan!!! I just remembered, Taiwan has damn good xlb!!!!! Mad love for xlb.

to be continued because the pictures are making me hungry so I should change and get out to find food