UT 2 is over and I thought we could start relaxing for awhile at least but turns out that we have to start  revising for UT 3 already because it's in 3 weeks time. I have to start attending trainings in 2 weeks time which sucks. I never ever want to return to netball please.

East coast for dinner few weeks back with the family.

with the best bitching buddies during biz stats class :)

I don't even know how is it possible to get so annoyed by person. o m g for the thousandth time I've been saying I want to get out of this situation but I can't. I never even thought it is possible for me to hate someone I haven't met or talked to in months. But I guess this is what happens when you talk shit about someone on social network. Honestly just S T O P talking about me already it is so freaking annoying and it is not as though I don't have other things to bother about. This sums up another crazy bad week.

Personal thoughts

What a rollercoaster week it has been for me. I skipped training and received a warning letter + I am not selected for games + I got scammed of 23.50 + I got scammed even more on something else + every other things that happened this week. I am so tired I really am. I sleep everything off every single day at 11pm because I don't want my mind to be occupied with unimportant stuff or things that makes me upset. So I don't really know how to explain how this week has been for me but so thankful for my strengths - Aaron, Anthea, Grace, Cherie, Sofia and Venie!

Everyone from ep judges me because I don't or have not turned up for trainings in 3 months. I am THIS close to getting kicked out of the team because of my terrible attendance. My mom told me to quit if I don't think I can handle all the shit but I can't... I mean netball is such a big part of my life before I actually started skipping. That was where I met all my bestest girlfriends too - Anthea and Andrea. Shit happens. I am honestly so disappointed with myself because I used to be vice-cap and now this nonsense happens and I have to start everything from 2ep again. I forgot how to do or even lead the team at warm-ups for pre-training, I forgot the routine for court and actual games. I forgot what am I supposed to do in my WA position. Everything will need to be restarted again. Coach keira is so god damn disappointed with me too. I am so sorry, I will start returning back for trainings next month :(

I don't know how am I even supposed to feel this week. I just want to be numb to everything at this moment. Knowing that I have just 2.5 weeks left with my sem 2 classmates kills me a little more. I hate RP for always changing our classes just as we started getting comfortable with each other. Oh god. Thankful for a good group of sem 2 classmates anyway, you girls know who you are ;)

//edit: it's 2 days to the 27th which makes everything worse. this sucks//

2/365

Today is the 2nd day of the 365 days. Insane, just like that we are into the new phase of life. On 31st December 2012, Rebecca (a tumblr friend) welcomed her new member of her family. I am so happy for her virtually, it's like she deserved it more than anyone else. Congrats once again babe!

I have also decided to co-blog with my best friend! Exciting times. I write this 2nd chapter of 2013 with so much happiness because it's a new start, a new beginning. 

Two years ago, the gorgeous Demi Lovato celebrated New Year in rehab and this year she is so much stronger and healthier and I couldn't be happier. I am so proud to be a Lovatic and so proud of her recovery, god bless this wonderful woman x

2013

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R !

It's 12.25am as I am typing this post so happy new year everybody, it's officially 2013 here in Singapore. I am now at Ritz Carlton and all of us are glued to the window catching a glimpse of the celebration at the float @ Marina Bay! I think I need to be there, at the float next year - 2014. I still cannot believe Kyle Patrick, my childhood sweetheart is performing there.

So there have been some things which have been the highlight of my 2012.

1. Chelsea 

19th May 2012. A day which I will remember vividly, forever. It was such a beautiful and special day thank you boys for making my 2012 such a memorable one. Thank you for winning the champions league for the fans. This was the highlight of the year actually!!!

2. Happy

Thank you to my dearest parents for bringing her to my life right before chinese new year. I think she is the best gift I have ever got and probably the most pricey. But she has made an immediate impact in my life and I probably wouldn't know what I would be without her. I love her so freaking much, sometimes even more than myself.

3. Demi Lovato

Perfect. Oh so perfect. I never understood fangirls before I legitly met Demi Lovato. But now I am one heck of a fangirl that goes crazy over every photo that I see of Demi Lovato. This year, I watched her documentary - Stay Strong and understood what she went through and just felt 'wow this girl is so brave'. Subsequently I watched other videos and read stories online about her as to how much of an inspiration she was to all the girls who got bullied because she was bullied by her 'friends'. I fell in love in her, at times I even feel I can relate so well with whatever she was saying because everything seemed so true. I love you Demi, oh I love you so much :*