Believe In Me - Demi Lovato

The song of my life, the lyrics are so meaningful. Truly reflects on how life has been for me the past few years, how much I have been comparing myself with others and how it didn't work out for me. How much I detested myself because I wasn't "perfect" in my terms and how my friends would bully me. Then because I was such a loser and had no friends, I would still go back to this group of girls no matter how much they hurt me. I would put on a fake smile and pretend that everything was okay when it actually wasn't. Nobody was there for me, no fucking body.

"For those of you who have been or are being bullied, you are stronger than the hurtful words people label you with. Bullies only have their words and insecurities, where you have your inner strength and will power to either believe what they said or shred those words that have absolutely no truth to them. You have a choice to believe it or not. Make the right decision. Stand up for yourself and surround yourself with a strong group of friends. If you've been bullied in the past and see others with the same short end of the stick that you had before, don't be afraid to be the love and support of those people. They need you more than you know. The life that we have isn't always going to be easy that's why I am lucky to have my family and friends to get through it."

Bullying

I don't know but bullying have been especially sensitive to me ever since I started watching the stay strong documentary by demi. That was also when I started liking Demi Lovato. 

I don't believe in bullying, cyber-bullying and verbally bullying anyone. Yes I used to bully people before I started liking Demi. We all have to start from somewhere right. But right now I detest bullies. Each time my friend makes fun of another person, I do not join in. I do not join them in making fun of the person because what for? What would I gain from bullying someone? I don't know. It's so horrible to judge someone when you don't even know that person deep down. 

You see that girl sitting there, she's a tad big size and you make fun of her saying she's fat. You call her names and insult her. Do you know that her being big size is because it's a heredity problem? Do you know she might have secretly starved herself just to please society and people like you? Do you know she might have tried to commit suicide because of all the insults you all have said? Will you feel conscience your whole life if one day she decides to end her life because of YOUR nasty comments to her? Please think. Think before you talk.

I have been bullied my whole life. My friends would tell me I will never fit into that bikini that they bought or worst still my primary school friend told me I couldn't be part of their clique because I am not pretty. Wow imagine you're only in primary school and people tell you these horrible things. I am not perfect. I don't have dimples, neither do I have visible collarbones or thigh gaps. But I am perfectly healthy the way I am and that's all that matters. That was this period of time during my PSLE time, I would constantly cut myself on my wrist using penknives and when I felt it was too pain I would use a ruler instead because people told me I couldn't do it, I'm not worth it. The mean girls in school sucks, up till now whenever I see one of the girl in my polytechnic. I avoid her, I don't even want to make friends with her ever again. 

I just want to say nobody is perfect. I am lucky enough to come from a family who supported me no matter what and would help me overcome these bullies. Was it worth it to lose my life because of them? NO. One day I will become a better person than them and the bullies will watch me rise from above. Just so you know every year thousands of people commit suicide because of bullies, stop bullying and help instead. You might save a life. If you're going through a rough time, remember to ALWAYS ASK FOR HELP. Don't feel embarrassed that you're asking for help, your counselors, teachers, parents and friends will help you only if you ask. But most importantly help yourself first by asking for help.

Stay strong, sending you all the positive love and vibes xxx